一直對余華的作品情有所鍾, 他是由我讀大學時中文教授介紹的, 一讀之下便愛上了.

他的作品較出名的是<活着>, <賣血記>...每次看他的作品, 心中便有一股股震撼的感覺...他描寫的細膩, 比喻等, 都令我的心情有很大起伏, 憤怒的...不平的...感動的...心悸的...溫情的....從一部書中完全感受了....雖然他刻劃的時代距離我們已經五十年了, 但那是個瘋狂的年代, 而且幾千年來人類的本性亦沒有多大進步, 因此感受依然非常非常深刻...........

剛正在看他的<兄弟>, 差點又令我哭起來..........

I am back!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

Now I am sitting in front of the computer, drinking fresh water,  listening very soft piano music (forget the name), and typing my blog....this moment is MAGIC!!!!! Life is as simple as that.....

Long time no write anything in blog la....several months already....Time passes really so damn fast...

I still can see what i write below, "my cousin is coming!!!" and Now he is already three and half months..hahaha...he is so cutie, but also sometimes trouble la....(when cry) He did cry crazily...wooo~~~but also very active sometimes...When we have baby in our house, the atomsphere become much 熱鬧, which i think is very good thing........

Recently,....weather changed......some of my friends may already know, when weather change, my mood change..

Don't know why, maybe this is really seasonal depression??? I dont deny I have depression...um..but recently, really quite moody, no motivation (although i do go gym and martial arts training regularly, I lost motivation on, for example, my placement and courses I attended before)...

Um..seasonal depression??? Just feel like, when weather changes, u can SMELL that depressive feelings, it makes u remember some feelings - just a feel, just like listening an old song that make u sad...but now, the stimulus is weather only...

Feel so confused about my future, my career path....i nearly graduated from my master degree, and already 27....I discover my problem is i dunno what i want...is what I WANT..not other people's expectation on me...

I WANT???? i dunno either......I set too many boundaries on myself........

- high salaries??? very challenging???police??? very good...but is it suitable for me??? maybe i just want a simple life...stable and no need challenging...just want to enjoy life....

- stable???ok salaries???how about future???

- psychology???whatever???

I JUST WANT A SIMPLE LIFE, doing some jobs, and after job, enjoy doing gym and training...sometimes gathering with friends .....I know maybe i am not aggressive...but this is ME!!!!!! I hope to enjoy life ar!!!!!!!!

Suddenly want to cry.....

近來, 對錯覺圖頗有興趣......Human always think that what they see or know is truth...thats funny....Because, in fact, it isnt.....

(1) Human not only passively receive the msg from outside..in fact, they actively make judgment to the outside message....i think this can also imply to not only  our sensory organs, but also our cognition.

(2) There are many illusion and confusion......How can we say what we know, or see now is the truth??? centuries ago, people said Newton is right. Then, Estein prove another theories......Now we are trying to solve sth that Estein cannot answer. Even what we see, many people totally believe something wrong is right.......For human, when they can understand the truth behind the shadow??????? Not only the outside world, but also our inner consciousness?????

Wai....read my blog count, know that there are some people who read my blog...really feel happy!!!!! Coz i know some people concern about me, think of me, and i also share sth with people..that feeling is pretty amazing!!!

Last night, went to Shereton Hotel, Sky Lounge with Pinky, Mei Ling, and Patrick to have dinner...We eat many seafood, Oysters, and open a Resiling White wine, with a great sea view and Laser show...so cool!!!!!!!!!!!! We do have good chat, and I am so enjoy gathering like this, and chatting with friends in a very relax way........

and then we went to starbucks and have cheese cake and continue to chat.....so wonderful night!!!!
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Today is an unbelievable day!!!!!!!!
Damn!!!!! so hot, so tired, so sleepy, and so sweaty...>.<

My boss ask all of us to play a game, which need us to hang around Hong Kong (not Hong Kong Island) within a day...The time is so limited, The weather is so hot, The T-shirt is so weired....Everything is just a mistake!!!!!!!

and then our team finished at 7.00pm, the last one...and then we suppose to have buffet, but of coz need to hear our boss's presentation..then after a long time crying of my stomach, we finally have dinner at 8.30pm...><..

Extremely tired!!!!!!!!!

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Even tomorrow is holiday, dont want to go anywhere.............

Finally, finished my pretty harsh month - May. Exam is gone, courses are gone.

In June, my time become more flexible and workload is a bit lesser.......However, something did happened and make me confused. Firstly, i want to thanks a lot to all of my friends who show their concern on me - Maggie, Sylvia, Jocelyn, Si Fu!!! I know they treat me so good, i really know! coz i really feel it~~~~~

Tonight, I feel really enjoable and happy and exciting!!! Firstly, in afternoon, I enjoyed a lunch buffet with Pinky in city garden hotel, which is so full, but so enjoyable!!!!! and then Go to Si Fu for training!!!

You know Si Fu, I really miss the training so much!!! and i still have many things need to learn from you!!!!!!!!

and then go to have dinner with Maggie and Sylvia....I must say thanks to both of them...they give me so many great sharing and ideas, which i think is really useful for me. I remember two things in my mind - (1) no matter how harsh it is, i need to know what i am doing and i need to know what i am doing is worthy, (2) being a psychologist means being professional, i need to remember this, which is not equal to sales.

and then have gathering with johnny, ricky, conal.......wai..no need to say, dunno how to express how much I miss them!!!!!!!!! i do miss them so much!!!!! really long long time no gathering with them, even johnny..><.....no touching when i saw them tonight~~~~~~ they are my family members...

and then have drink with pinky and Mei Ling...cool~~~~~~ nice chat with them....i do enjoy the moments chatting with friends.....so enjoyable...

What I do tonight is what i most enjoy...and also long time no enjoy...

so, TONIGHT I REALLY FEEL SO EXCITING AND HAPPY!!!!!!^^